Friday, October 3, 2008

Hustle or Not?

I'm struggling with myself today...

I pride me on being nonjudgemental of others. People tell me crazy shit all of the time. I don't blink. So - people keep sharing their crazy biz with me, and I keep on not blinking.

HOWEVER.... there is one area in life where I am extremely judgemental and I see this trait in some men in particular. And this is when -- I hear the talk... "I'm doing this, I'm doing that, I'm movin and shakin and got this connect. I know so and so." Man oh man, do I hate that. The men I know who really have it going on like that don't have to state it.

And since I'm complaining -- when a person knows that I am a dear friend of someone, and wants that hook up. Perhaps, Dear Scavenger, I am that person's friend because I love them for them, and don't care about the hook up. Ah!

So the struggle with myself is that there is a whole world of opportunity out there -- and I'm not gettin my hustle on. Sure, I'm a middle class American girl with a j-o-b. But I'm not taking advantage of the American dream. I can watch the Secret and make affirmations everyday all I want - but then it comes down to the hustle. I firmly believe some folks are hustlers and some are not and it just is. I'm ashamed to admit to myself that I've been complacent for 5 years now.

I'm right under the surface of the water, and just need to come up for air. People are hustlers or not. Time to just do it. Not talk about it.

2 comments:

Teej said...

I hope it doesnt come off corny when I say I feel you on this. The thing about it is....I know Im talented, prolly more talented than most. I have booku potential and yet I feel the claws of complacency sinking in too. Been on this job 5 years my damn self. You the things I have going on so it's not like Im doing absolutely nothing.

I just am not good at motivating myself. Or rather Im good at rationalizing the procrastination. Yeah Im talented at that too!

We gon make it Keir...I promise we are.

Don said...

Oh, I didn't realize you had stopped blogging. O well. God bless.